It has been a while since I wrote a blog. The last year has been busy for our business and personal lives as we continue in our journey to baby peake.
On Sunday October 6th after weeks of symptoms and my husband encouraging me to take a test I finally did. It said PREGNANT.
I let out a yell at 6:30 am for James to come upstairs right away, he knew as soon as I yelled it was positive. We sat there hugging and crying for what seemed to be hours. We were bursting with happiness knowing that we were pregnant and baby peake was happening.
I had a follow up appointment with Dr. Ripley scheduled for October 15th, I called his office to let him know ahead of time which the message didn’t get passed along.
I sat in his office that afternoon, he came in with a big smile and said “good news, the pills worked, you ovulated” in which I said “I’m pregnant”. He was surprised and excited for us. He did an internal ultrasound that day to see if he could estimate roughly how far along I was, his guess was 4- 4 1/2 weeks. I went for blood work the following week which my levels were great.
Excitement really started to set in then. I finally got my dating ultrasound appointment for November 25th which seem like forever away. I was feeling good minus the nausea etc. As the weeks went by, we would take a photo of my belly every week and see the changes. I couldn’t believe our dream of starting a family was finally happening. It was the best weeks of my life.
Fast forward to now 9 weeks and 1 day on November 20th at roughly 1:30pm, I went to the bathroom to what I thought was to pee and I started bleeding. My mom and aunt had just arrived at my house, we had front row tickets to see Johnny Reid that night. I felt great, no cramps, no pain, nothing. I was in shocked. I sat there crying and screaming for my husband, as my biggest fear was happening and there wasn’t anything I could do to stop it. I couldn’t protect baby peake.
Anyone that knows me knows exactly how stubborn I am, I made James take my mom and aunt to the concert then take me to the hospital. Stupid? probably but I wasn’t thinking straight. I passed the baby before I left the house, I arrived at Cobiquid Emergency that evening, they did blood work and gave me IV for fluids and nausea. The whole evening was scary. James thought he was going to lose me, he was so terrified and felt helpless. He broke my heart, he is amazing and my strength.
I arrived for 10:15 the next morning to have an ultrasound, then while waiting for the doctor they did repeat blood work. He finally after hours came in to tell me that my uterus was empty and it was a complete miscarriage. My levels were dropping and my hemglobin was down a bit. I can’t believe how fast our happiness was ripped away from us.
Dr Ripley called me the following Tuesday, sad for us and suggested we wait until the new year to start the medication again to give my body time to heal. I will see him hopefully in January/February. We know the dose of 7.5mg worked so that is a huge bonus. We are hoping 2020 will bring New Year with New Life.
A piece of our heart will always be with baby peake in Heaven, we will forever love our angel baby ❤ It’s special to be mommy and daddy to an angel. ❤
Over 2 years ago, I created our “Rainbow Baby Package” which now has a real special place in my heart as we hope and pray for ours.
Rainbow Baby Session:
“Rainbow Baby” is a baby who is welcomed into a family after there has been a loss experienced due to miscarriage, stillbirth or premature birth. A Rainbow baby is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravage of the storm.
Newborn Session (within first 10 days is ideal)
Maternity Session OR First Birthday Cake Smash Session
Special Rainbow Birth Announcement Template
1 hour Maternity or Cake Smash Session & 2 hour Newborn Session
Full resolution photos available in an online gallery
All incredible images captured during the session will be provided
From now until January 30th, 2020 I will be offering $100 off this package for anyone that wants to book this with us and is expecting their rainbow baby <3.
I want to thank all my family, friends and clients that have reached out during all of our journey so far. I’ve heard so many inspiring stories and met some great people. Much love to you all. ❤ ❤
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